ultimate bliss.
somehow even though i've had one hell of a year in the UK, it just feels as though i never left home.
i can't believe the year has passed by so quickly. i've had so many new experiences, made new friends and seen new places. i've learned and done much more than i could ever imagine, although i am pretty upset about how i ended 3rd year of medical school merely as an average student. there were many so-near-yet-so-far moments (like missing the Honours point by one miserable mark, and getting an Above Average for my SSC which i honestly deserved an Excellent for) that many a time made me feel like hitting my head with a piece of rock, because if i had just gone the extra inch (not even a mile), i would have at least completed my year on an impressive high.
that said, i suppose i should be counting my blessings and realise that although results are important, they are only what's written on paper. in the end, it is virtually impossible for me to graduate with an MBChB Honours* (because very few people do, and i am obviously not part of the creme de la creme huhuhu), so it really doesn't matter what my results are as long as i pass. it is the actual experience and knowledge that i've gained throughout the year that keep me in check that i am on the right track. i really don't want to just pass, i want to be competent at what i do. and after the year, i can be sure i am on my way.
i guess God has been kind to me. i just hope that 4th year will be just as good or even better.
* manchester medical school has an Honours programme in which we need to collect 7 Honours points (one point must be collected in the 5th year finals) to graduate with Honours. it doesn't actually matter because in medicine you either graduate or you don't, but you have to admit having an Honours next to your name does look pretty good! plus it does spice up your CV. i obviously won't graduate with Honours but it's nice to collect as many Honours points as i can for self-satisfaction!
